~ shopping in orchard ~
me : time juz passes by so fast. rem i used to cme to orchard to shop with my poly gfs after sch every friday. now, we r all working already.
cheryl : ya lor. we were only in our teens.
me : teenager. seems so far away now. *tinking* it has been 4 to 5 yrs since we graduated. *shocked face* god, we r now in our mid-20s.
cheryl : ya hor, i'm 25 now.
me : ya, i'm 24. soon we wld b in our late-20s. *horrorifed face*

i used to look forward to my b'days every yr cuz it wld mean presents, excuses to stay out late n i'm older. which means soon i can start working n lead my own life.

but ever since after my 21st b'day, i dread 15th july. i tink it e worst day of e yr. cuz its e day i got to add another yr to my age. actually its not looking older wat i hate but things changing ard me tat i detest. if i grow older, others do too. like my parents n regan. i love e way things r in my life now. status quo. *hmmm* ok, not everything. almost everything den. i'm so afraid things will change.

visited uncle richard n his wife after dinner today. uncle richard is my family's housing agent. he's really a nice n honest guy. anyone wans to look for or sell their apt n need such svc, let me noe ya. he's really good. my dad sold his old flat n i bought my flat thru him as well. he wld pop by my dad's hse occasionally. they r married for many yrs n v loving. uncle richard always picks auntie up after work. she wld accompany him n his clients to hse hunt at nite or on wkends. they haf no kids. so both of them always go travelling to c e world. sad thing was, auntie got malicious late stage cervix cancer. it was only detected recently n she has been to 2 ops. she always goes for yrly medical chk-up. its a wonder y it was not detected earlier or if e cancer really moved so fast.

life is really so unpredictable n so short. though i strongly believe life is 80% destinated n 20% in our hands. y can't god gif sme signs abt bad things tat r going to happen so we can prepare our selves mentally. mayb when we r born, gif us a timeline n major milestones of our life. or a dvd of paths we can take. like when we make dis decision, dis is our life or we make tat decision, tat is our life wld be like so tat we get a clear overview.

*sighs* anyways, went to eat supper in chinatown. we had char kuay teow, sambal stingray (i've been craving for it for days), oyster omelette n ice kachang. e food is avg. i tink newton circus is better.

fairly busy today. had wu xing chicken rice for lunchie (been long time since i ate it) n den went to beauty world to buy a gift with rac for pam's unborn baby daugther. mum cook chilli crabs for dinner. but no time to eat cuz we were there rather late n need to rush to uncle richard's place. =<

i'm find i'm losing hope in my life. its flickering in e distance. i'm trying very hard in my life to make things better. really hard. but smetimes i tink it fruitless. i dream to c a glimmer of hope, a sign tat everything is going to turn out just how i wan it to b. i long to c how my life will b at age 30, 40, 50 n i wan to die at 60. how i wish i haf a time machine or a crystal ball or e ability to read tea leaves n interpret coins thrown out fr a turtle shell. mayb i shld pick up tarot cards reading. *sigh* well, but guess fortune telling is nv in me. i haf nv even visited one in my whole life. haa...

::~28~::

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never gif up coz u never noe wad is jus ahead of u.

*trIxY*

# posted by  Anonymous : Mon Sep 20, 06:19:00 PM

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thks for e encouragement. i tink frens r like wind blowin away e dark clouds for tat ray of hope to shine thru. :) thk u for being my fren. hee...

# posted by  Linda : Fri Sep 24, 02:01:00 AM

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